It's a PLANNED thing!

Mother's Day. What a wonderful day to celebrate the lady that raised us, loved us, cared for us, helped mold us into the people we are, disciplined us, and remained by our side when the world seemed to turn the other way. I am thankful. My momma is exactly the momma I hope to be. I think her PURPOSE on this earth was solely to be a mother because she is just so dang good at it.

This little but meaningful holiday could be sad, but I refuse to allow it to be. Through our journey in life- I HAVE BECOME A MOTHER. Yes, my babies are in heaven and what a miracle that they STILL have such a grand impact on so many lives. I may not have had the opportunity to change diapers, bottle feed, spank, ... but ya know... I'm okay with that now. There are somedays that just suck and I may disagree with my own words on those particular days, but I think God has worked on my heart for so long and so hard that I have learned to accept our loss and gain from it. At our Mother's Day church service, one of the key notes was, "God's plan may seem unbelievable, but you can trust Him." WOW! That really hit home for me. I don't know how many times that exact thought, "unbelievable", crossed my mind with baby Boston and then again with the miscarriage: "Why me?" "What did we do?" "I can't believe this!" "That was not our plan!"

But ya know... IT'S NOT OUR PLAN. It's never going to be "OUR PLAN". God knows what he is doing and we have to remember that ALWAYS.... even on those days/dates that we want to curl up and hide under a dark rock.

Many are the plans in a man's heart,

but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails. Proverbs 19:21

So the day after Mother's day... and I am proud to be Boston Jae Percifull's mother! I am proud to have the best mother in the world that just so happens to be my bestest-friend. I am proud to see my little sister celebrate her FIRST mother's day with baby Aust (THAT'S exciting!!!). I am proud to be blessed with an awesome Mother-in-law whom I love very much. I am so greatful for my Nanny who had such a HUGE impact on my life. And I am happy to make the first unofficial announcement that I am currently 8 weeks pregnant (9 on Wednesday)! Yep, you read correctly. But if you are family, don't get your feelings hurt! Jared and I made an agreement to keep it quiet for a while, but we need PRAYERS! So if you are reading this, I just ask that you say a small prayer for Jared and I. That we will have the strength and calmness to get through what we need to get through. Prayers! Prayers! So here we go again. I will try to remember to exhale once in a while....

I see the doctor once a month and more often as we progress. Updates will come as we get them and if/when I am comfortable with sharing with the world. I'm still not completely attached to the idea and ready to celebrate. It may be a long 9 months--

It's TERRIFYING. It's answered prayers. It's God in control.

AMEN.